I wish i didn’t, but he said it’s a bit late.
Sometimes things take you by surprise when you expect something, and it goes a little further in reality.
I said what i felt i had to, but i didn’t know the impact was so huge. Maybe it came out wrong, i bet it did, but it hurt him so bad. Then i realised that my own heart was breaking. You don’t expect to hurt someone you love so much and not feel a thing, but what surprises me now is that i can’t control how i feel. I can’t stop the tears and the pain. The agony.
It’s my own fault. If i had thought about my actions and the consequences, then maybe things wouldn’t have come to this. But it’s ‘bit late’ as he said. And now i’m left with almost.. nothing. He went off. And i’m wishing so hard he didn’t.
I want to start over. I love him so.